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Monday, March 29, 2010, 3:17 AM hello. I hate alice in wonderland. why? - I can make absolutely no sense of it/it's nonsense. - so there is no reason. at all for people to proclaim it as their favourite childhood story>:( - and even less reason for the insane media hype about the AIW film. It makes no sense. michelee, I need, desperately so, to hear your views on this. because you're a biting critic! of dumb nonsense. but you hold an innate, brilliant appreciation of.. good nonsense. that actually makes brilliant sense and has a purpose, at least. aka maowriness. so I must hear what you have to say about it. ugh. man. I hate mathematics right now. but I enjoy - probably nobody will ever understand. but a lot of things make fundamental logic to me. like I enjoy finding the exact reasons for why things happen in my mind. in that way, there is an answer for almost everything. the only examples I can think of right now are exceedingly simple ones that will bring down the level of the issue I'm trying to bring across right now. Suffice it to say at the basic levels, for some questions that can't be explained.. here! a quote! 'let us proceed to facilitate communications, and bring about the termination of hostilities.' It's actually a glorified excuse used by an awesome assassination droid in star wars for slaughter and carnage. but anyhow. sometimes you don't know why you feel this way in reaction to something someone said, perhaps. let's say you feel anger, and innate guilt. then you really analyse yourself and see exactly why you feel that way. otherwise vague, nagging feelings will prevail, and you have no idea why you feel this way. And when you don't know, then sometimes you do things that are rash and stupid because of emotions you haven't figured out. so, facilitating communications is neccessary, within your own self. and the hostilities are vague, stray thoughts and emotions you can't even specify and name, unless you look inside yourself. then you can attribute it to either character traits, inferring if these need to be rectified. or something else. straggly. illogical to most people. well. that's what I am trying to do right now. nevermind. maybe I'll take this up again sometime. you know, when I say nevermind, I mean I won't go on for now - because I am unable to clearly express myself. not because it doesn't matter. arrgh. ok. I have no idea why but in my maths teacher's class I always.. feel the urge to look inattentive. I have absolutely no Idea why. She's very nice, so it's not out of hatred of an ogre-type teacher. .. I put both of the dampening pedals down when I play the piano. and I hold them there, and my brother still can't stand the sound. This is something that I really hate about him. His susceptibility to sensory overload via excess auditory stimulation. (the grandiose language isn't just hypocritic flaunting of what my vocabulary. I really do think like this in my mind, actually, when I'm trying to figure things out. Long words carry meaning that you can't find in simpler words and it helps to narrow down details in your thoughts. part of the above ramble. part of how I try to untangle reasons for actions I carry out without conscious thought to the exact reasons why.) anyway. I want an electric piano. or my own house. no, I don't think I'd like to play long-term on one. ok. my own house, then. someday. now I feel like ending so I shall end.